I have a friend who suffers from pretty severe depression, occasionally to the point of suicidal thoughts. He wrote me this email:
Have you ever played a game, made a big mistake and now have no hope of getting a decent score? So maybe you play around a bit waiting for it to be over – giving no serious effort to it. Well, that’s how I’ve been about almost everything my whole life. I just want whatever it is I’m having to do to be over.”
I replied that I didn’t think God cares what his score is and that in many ways he is better off than someone with a huge score (by being rich, powerful, healthy, famous, etc.) because they tend to think their score is because of their efforts alone.
Interestingly, just a few hours later I just happened to run across this:
Thus says the LORD: “Let not the wise man boast in his wisdom, let not the mighty man boast in his might, let not the rich man boast in his riches, but let him who boasts boast in this, that he understands and knows me, that I am the LORD who practices steadfast love, justice, and righteousness in the earth. For in these things I delight, declares the LORD.” – Jeremiah 9:23-24 (English Standard Version)